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So last night I did something rather hastily. I went on someone's twitch stream, an ex fuck buddies twitch stream, and wrote down (I won't share his name to piss him off any further) I wrote down by accident "there's something you all should know XXX is a wife beater" I've been fighting feeling bad and good at the same time that I ousted him. He ignored me, he left me in the dark, and kept making me give into him and give and give, and when I ever wanted any he just disregarded me. So I kind of returned the favour and I disregarded his feelings. What goes around comes around. He told me that he was no longer going to be friends with me. Did he even notice in his own little fucked up world that I had blocked him? Did he not care? I was going to do a lot more cruel to him. I'm not exactly beating myself up, I just want him to know I'm truly sorry and that I just want to redeem myself, but not be friends that show him that what I did was inexcusable and that I did go down to his own level for that split moment I hit the send button. It can't be undone I can't go to a time machine and tell myself to not send that message cause it's already done, were not living in a fantasy world. I learned I should have handled the situation a lot better. I don't feel as bad any more just letting it all go and forgiving myself for what I did and I am moving forward onto better things and better friends. 
  • Mood: Nervous
Well a lot has happened. Friends have betrayed me, I've betrayed some friends. I decided to try to let go of the past. I had to quit one person. I've found a lot about myself. I know I vowed to not let people get to me so much but well opps. I got chronic again. I'm stressed out I don't know what to do with this one person and maybe another. I got to try to hone in on my spirituality even more and not stress myself out trying to do it through meditation. I need to stop getting too many racing thoughts and staying inside so much..... I need to try to join social groups. I need to stop worrying about how I am going to pay first and last months rent in my new apartment my dad could always try to strike a deal with wherever I go or can find a place where I don't need to put last months in. I got to find other things to do to fill my time. I need to maybe get working to get some more money. I need to stop and let people be who they are and cut the people that need cutting out of my life. 
  • Mood: Sadness
So last night I did something rather hastily. I went on someone's twitch stream, an ex fuck buddies twitch stream, and wrote down (I won't share his name to piss him off any further) I wrote down by accident "there's something you all should know XXX is a wife beater" I've been fighting feeling bad and good at the same time that I ousted him. He ignored me, he left me in the dark, and kept making me give into him and give and give, and when I ever wanted any he just disregarded me. So I kind of returned the favour and I disregarded his feelings. What goes around comes around. He told me that he was no longer going to be friends with me. Did he even notice in his own little fucked up world that I had blocked him? Did he not care? I was going to do a lot more cruel to him. I'm not exactly beating myself up, I just want him to know I'm truly sorry and that I just want to redeem myself, but not be friends that show him that what I did was inexcusable and that I did go down to his own level for that split moment I hit the send button. It can't be undone I can't go to a time machine and tell myself to not send that message cause it's already done, were not living in a fantasy world. I learned I should have handled the situation a lot better. I don't feel as bad any more just letting it all go and forgiving myself for what I did and I am moving forward onto better things and better friends. 
  • Mood: Nervous

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I love animals, anime, and everything about nature, especially the weather.

I'm making myself a lot more positive, and changing my eatting habits a day at a time.

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Favourite cartoon character: Iskander fate/zero
Personal Quote: I'd rather be a complete loner then have a million friends I can't trust
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Trekeren Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015
Thanks for fave :D
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015
Np Blessed be. 
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SueMArt Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Many Thanks for the Fave, appreciated Heart 
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Your welcome 
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222maya Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
thx for the fav  :)
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
Your very welcome thanks for the Daft llama 
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Yoruichi-Takashi Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav on my new drawing! :happybounce: 
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014
Can never go wrong with a sylvari :3.
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alucard27 Featured By Owner May 23, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
thanks for the fav!
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Np :)
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