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Memorial by herenity86
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R.I.P Pepsi may you no longer suffer. You find  your way to mommy and many others. Roam free. 
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I vow to not let what other people do affect me so much and keep reminding myself what they do is not my concern, that I will not try to control what others do, I am swearing off any relationship and anything sexual with anyone and this time will mean it. I will eat a lot more and incorporate more fruits and veggies into my diet as I am turning 19 and am fussier than a five year old lol. I hope to find someone who will say try this one new thing and actually eat it or force myself to like it somehow if I do not. I vow with the nicer weather to go for two hour long walks each day to devils punchbowl and make it longer each day. I will stop beating myself up over past hurts and stop obsessing. I will be kind to myself and will know this will take time to do that. But whenever any of that happens I am going to just go and say it's not worth it to get that worked up over someone or something that just kicked you to the curb. 
  • Mood: Sadness
So huge blow up with my now ex fuck buddy/friend who wants to persue a relationship. I basically lost it on him hung up on him and he threw it in my face that I wasn't ready for a relationship. Came to get his stuff and basically did the same shit as my ex best friend I screwed. He basically just blocked and deleted me I gave him his condoms back and said looks like these got me into another world of trouble..... Then another "friend" I don't even wanna call him that first "deleted me by accident" then I said I am sorry but they always ask are you sure you want to delete this person... Then he readds me.... Then I do readd him and basically said okay they always ask are you sure so unless somehow your finger slipped a second time, then he blocked and deleted me.... Then my so called "sister" not by blood "used to" be that close to her she is giving me lectures about how to live MY life... In all honesty I am fed up with all of it and just want to mass delete people off my fb just because I still feel there pure poison in my life and made me into someone I never wanted to be... They did help me through a lot but basically I passed just barely and at what cost a diploma and still no job which I haven't even been looking for.
These past few years have been nothing but rants like that and there might be much more but you know what they do make me feel so much better. I feel so emotionally drained from all the shit that has happened this year and in past years. I am looking forward to the new year and a new town and a new me. Pepsi I'll miss him but I need to put him down soon he's not doing all that well some days are good some are bad. He's been struggling. I know nobody reads these but I feel better just writing this shit out. In the new year I am gonna freshen up everything. Do a sage cleanse after cleaning the whole place up and light candles in windows and sage everything away.
  • Mood: Sadness
I keep having the same visions of waves in my beach strip nearby me like huge tidal waves usually several weeks or months pass by and bad things normally happen and somethig changes me usually for the better, sometimes for the worst but I am ready for whatever storm may come in the next few months. 
  • Mood: Wow!
  • Drinking: Water
I am proud to be Bi, a proud otaku who cosplays and watches anime and doesn't call them "stupid little unintelligent cartoons". I like escaping from the real world once a weekend in a year which I can't do due to lack of funds and breaking up with my bf.... My heart is breaking in two that I can't be near my family at Youma this weekend that I almost felt like crying my eyes out. I am apart of the gaming community and have a few great guild friends I talk to that give amazing advice. I used to be apart of a wiccan church here in my town but made a choice to be solitary and practice on my own.... All I ask for from people is to respect all of that defines me and makes me who I am and I fully embrace it and have all of it close to my heart. Why can't some people just respect that and me? 
  • Mood: Wow!
  • Drinking: Water
I vow to not let what other people do affect me so much and keep reminding myself what they do is not my concern, that I will not try to control what others do, I am swearing off any relationship and anything sexual with anyone and this time will mean it. I will eat a lot more and incorporate more fruits and veggies into my diet as I am turning 19 and am fussier than a five year old lol. I hope to find someone who will say try this one new thing and actually eat it or force myself to like it somehow if I do not. I vow with the nicer weather to go for two hour long walks each day to devils punchbowl and make it longer each day. I will stop beating myself up over past hurts and stop obsessing. I will be kind to myself and will know this will take time to do that. But whenever any of that happens I am going to just go and say it's not worth it to get that worked up over someone or something that just kicked you to the curb. 
  • Mood: Sadness

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herenity86
Helena
Canada
I love animals, anime, and everything about nature, especially the weather.

I'm making myself a lot more positive, and changing my eatting habits a day at a time.

Wanna know more simply ask!

Current Residence: hamilton
deviantWEAR sizing preference: not sure...?
Print preference: any and every kind
Favourite genre of music: anything
Favourite style of art: gothic lolita
Operating System: xp and vista :o
MP3 player of choice: ipod touch
Shell of choice: turtle
Skin of choice: demon :o
Favourite cartoon character: Iskander fate/zero
Personal Quote: I'd rather be a complete loner then have a million friends I can't trust
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222maya Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
thx for the fav  :)
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
Your very welcome thanks for the Daft llama 
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Yoruichi-Takashi Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav on my new drawing! :happybounce: 
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014
Can never go wrong with a sylvari :3.
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alucard27 Featured By Owner May 23, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
thanks for the fav!
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herenity86 Featured By Owner May 23, 2014
Np :)
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abyss1956 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014
Thanks much for +fav Heart 
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014
Your welcome :).
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SerenityWireDesigns Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the fav!
I'm glad you liked my pendant:)
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herenity86 Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014
Your welcome :).
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