So last night I did something rather hastily. I went on someone's twitch stream, an ex fuck buddies twitch stream, and wrote down (I won't share his name to piss him off any further) I wrote down by accident "there's something you all should know XXX is a wife beater" I've been fighting feeling bad and good at the same time that I ousted him. He ignored me, he left me in the dark, and kept making me give into him and give and give, and when I ever wanted any he just disregarded me. So I kind of returned the favour and I disregarded his feelings. What goes around comes around. He told me that he was no longer going to be friends with me. Did he even notice in his own little fucked up world that I had blocked him? Did he not care? I was going to do a lot more cruel to him. I'm not exactly beating myself up, I just want him to know I'm truly sorry and that I just want to redeem myself, but not be friends that show him that what I did was inexcusable and that I did go down to his own level for that split moment I hit the send button. It can't be undone I can't go to a time machine and tell myself to not send that message cause it's already done, were not living in a fantasy world. I learned I should have handled the situation a lot better. I don't feel as bad any more just letting it all go and forgiving myself for what I did and I am moving forward onto better things and better friends.